My father was a christian pacifist. I used to get bullied and picked on in my school for years. So when my father heard I got into a fights in school(ya know, to defend myself). He punished me severely. He would tell me its my “christain duty” to let people beat me up and those picking on me where gifts from god(yes, he actually said this), cause now I’m truly “blessed”. He would constanly confir to the “turn the other cheek” quote from the bible. Book of Matthew, Chapter 5.
So I grew up timid and introverted, which only exasperated my bullies further. As an adult, I'm still overly quiet and somewhat timid. So people still take advantage of me, and to see more aggressive people much more successful than I am. It does hit me to the core, cause my instint to “be brave” was taken from me. I have gotten better, but it took me getting away from my father and many more years of pain. So my hatred for pacifism is on a personal level.
I also since then have left the christain faith.